About me

So the University I attend had their student mass. For a long time, I felt as if I didn't belong in this world. You know what I mean? I felt as though I were an outcast of society. I wanted to give a brief history about me and who I am if that is okay.

As a child, I grew up in many Christian churches. In my younger years, my parents would drag me to church, spank me because I hated going and would misbehave, and drag me back home. As I got older I began attending church on my own. The first church (where I got my first Girl friend) was a A.O.G Church. I was in the seventh grade and a good friend of mine invited me to go with her; we were practically family due to how close we were. However, I eventually left and quit going all together. After High school, I started going to church again. Her and I began dating once again, and things were going well. I was going to her house one night to propose to her when she told me she wanted to talk.

For you men out there, you KNOW all about the "talk." Needless to say, I left with a ring, no dignity, and cried for nearly three weeks. It was, at this point, I became an Atheist. My reasoning was that no loving God would consistently put me into the hell I was going through. To skip ahead to 2008. I was working at a retail store where I met a lovely young lady. Her and I began dating and things got serious.... Notice a pattern yet? Don't worry, you will. We got engaged and were literally months away from the wedding. One night she comes to my job late. My now ex best friend was with her. Long story short, they were sleeping together. Thinking back on this, it doesn't hurt me as it did now. In fact, I feel nothing but pity for her.

~Originally this blog expanded to discuss who was a close friend of mine. However, she has since proven to me she wasn't who I thought she was. For the sake of comfort, I have removed the ending of this blog.~

A temp ending

Recently I have found myself the victim of a group who enjoys tormenting people on YouTube. Accusations of me being a "cyber-Stalker" who targets young girls was just one of many things they used to deface my reputation; when that got them a lot of attention, they than began dragging my association with the Catholic Church into it. So, why am I writing about this?

I am writing about this because I want to talk about how people enjoy harming one another. you see, I have a profound knack for getting some of the worst friends imaginable. For example, I had a friend who, back in last May, tried to have me arrested for hacking their website... I can't hack and my specialty is in preventive hacking security. Basically, I can prevent hacking, but can't actually hack. I think it's human nature to cause harm. I think there's something inside of us that gets some sort of sick thrill from doing it. Overall, I think it's just sad... But not everybody is like this, however. There are some good people out there. I recently made a blog talking about such a person. I just wish there were more people like her in this world; at least the world would be a better place and not the "hell" that it is now. Anyways, I guess that's all I have to talk about for now.

PAX

Journey to the unknown

So I've decided to join the Catholic church. A rather interesting change considering in my last post I was an Atheist. I guess it goes to show that sometimes people just change. We don't know why or how, but it does happen. I feel that I've found a church that isn't 100% about money. I've never seen them "pass the offering plate." In fact, they never ask for money during their services. They're very open minded as a Religion and I like that. In time I have plans to become a Benedictine Monk; But that's still years away.